Learning to Face Defeat... - Old Database

Saturday, January 05, 2008

Learning to Face Defeat...

It's hard to describe what those few seconds feel like. Imagine it as happening in slow motion. I'm aware of every movement in my body as the adrenaline rushes round me like a steam train. All I can see is the $100, as if looking at it through the sight of a rifle. Everything else is a blur.

Then, a sudden gust occurred. The $100 was snatched from me, and disappeared totally in my sight. It feels like everything was gone, as in everything. The blurry surroundings was now clear, but still, I can't find where the $100 went. I'm hopeless, really hopeless. There was only a few days left in order to survive, without that $100, the planet called "Marhgil Macuha" will be swallowed into oblivion forever. I never lose hope, I searched for ways to find the whereabouts of it, but I can't. My skills are not enough, my powers are now worthless, my aura was slowly dying, and... I don't know what happened next.

Am I really that bad? Or was he really that good? Well, I'm almost there, but that almost will remain almost. I should accept this defeat even if it's hard to, because it taught me how to face a new beginning, a new hope, and a new endeavor to survive. I learned a lot from it, and it's a great experience to face such, and I'm honored from this defeat. It was a great war actually. I did my best, but i guess my best wasn't good enough, 'cause here we are back where we were before, seems nothing ever changes, we're back to being strangers, wond'ring if we ought to stay or head on out the door. (jehzeel kumanta ka ba?) Just once, can we figure out what we keep doin' wrong... OOOooooohh.. Why the good times... never last for long...? Where are we going wrong? *tititititttt, jehzeel tama na!*.. Just once! can't we find a way to fin'lly we make it right.. Oooh.. to make the magic last for more than just one night.. *tama! na* I know we could break thru' it, If we could just get to it, JUST ONCE!...

P.S.: Pag pasensyahan niyo na si jehzeel, medyo bitter. hehehe. :(